A Bigger Favour Could Not Be Asked....

If everyone could do me a HUGE favour I'd like you to watch the video I and two of my classmates have made. We are trying to win a contest put on by the OSMT(The Ontario Society of Medical Technologists) and we worked REALLY hard on it. Every share, like and view on YouTube gets us closer to winning!

A super massively huge big ginormous thank you!
 
*WARNING: Keep in mind that I am in a medical school program. If you're squeamish about needles this may not be the video for you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9AK3llsnxbc

One Whole Year....

....has passed since you've been gone.

It's strange. When you first left I feel like I was put through the full gamut of emotions. I was in shock, angry, guilt ridden, annoyed, and somehow relieved. All of the emotions one would expect to experience in such a situation. I think I cried more between the dates of June 25th and July 7th 2012 than I have in the entirety of my life. My heart had also never felt so broken and so joyous either. Knowing that you were in another place, a happier place saddened me and made me smile at the same time. All of the heartache you had to endure still weighs heavily on me to this day. I feel like I could have done more. I feel like I could have helped you. But mostly I just feel like I wasn't a good enough friend to you.

Now I realize that if you were here you would stare at me with that blank look on your face, maybe scrunch up your nose in that funny little way that indicated that that was the most absurd statement I could ever come up with at that present moment. But it's true. And even a year of mixed and mangled emotions can't ever change it.

It's strange. I feel like the tears I want to cry while writing this aren't coming but like they are superficial tears that are preventing the real ones from coming. Maybe it's my subconscious knowing that that would mean a sleepless night and I have a lot to do tomorrow.

School is so hard Bubba. I wish you were here to talk to. Family is family but I miss the way that you could spin everything into a way that made me understand and appreciate. I know you would volunteer to come into my classroom to be a ginny pig for my awesome phlebotomy skills (even if you did hate needles).

I have been trying to push off this post all day. I didn't know how I was going to start or end it. I was hoping that I would forget, be too busy, what have you but nevertheless here I am an hour later still writing. So this is how I will end my one year later post.

With a song and an elephant. Given to me by my friend's mother on the one year anniversary of her death.

I love you Aly Bubba.

And I'll never stop, or forget.

http://youtu.be/oozQ4yV__Vw

The Doctor Called....

.... and left a message on my cell phone. There's something wrong with my bloodwork. Anyone want to place bets? WBCs, platelets or iron saturation? #crohnsproblems #remicadeproblems #hemochromatosisproblems 

P.S. You can follow me on Twitter. @ChaoticKylee

Updates, Updates and....... Updates!

I feel like such a bad, terrible, horrible, no good, very bad blogger. I have been totally neglecting my readers and it makes me sad. And I'm not even going to try to say that "I tried" and "I was just so busy with school and homework and yadda yadda yadda...." because honestly, even though school is incredibly hectic, and stressful and everything you sign up for, I probably do still have time to blog. Maybe not everyday, or even every second day, but I know I should be able to be on here at least once a week updating my life. Not just for all of you but as a record for myself. Kind of like an electronic diary that I can look back at what I thought was important at one point of my life or another. I miss it....

UPDATES:

Blog Makeover: I have made over the blog layout for spring and I tried a little something different with the header. Let me know if you like it. Personally I think it is a bit tacky but I have been assured it's good. Here's hoping. Also, the background is now a road because I am currently booking it down the highway of life at mach 328980945959492104 and boy does it feel good. I thought it tied in nicely with the corny header. *SIGH*

School: School is awesome! It's so fun, I can't get enough. I work ahead and even start studying different modules before the class starts studying them. I have poked a fake arm too many times to count now. I have about 27 tubes of water that I have drawn off of "Bobby" the fake arm (although we think his name should be "Armand"....) On Tuesday I get to do my first real draw! EEEEE!!!! I'm so incredibly nervous, excited and petrified at the same time! Am I qualified to do this? I don't know but I'ma do it anyway. We also did Capillary Puncture. It's when you take an incredibly sharp object and poke your finger with it and squeeze tubes of blood out, who knew? I've got Order of Draw down pat and what each tube contains and does, just not how many times to invert the tubes but that should come in time. Did you know that each tube has different effects on a blood sample? I do now! So great. I will update regarding my first REAL draw after I do it. Bobby says I'm smooth as silk but we shall see.

Health: Surprisingly I've had no really bad pain since school started in January. Mini flares but nothing a night of rice and Gatorade can't extinguish. I thought for sure all of the changes in schedule, timing and workload would send me for a good loop. It could not be more opposite. I'm so proud of my body for adjusting. Of course Remicade helps too. ;)

Work: ....is work. It's daycare. It's tiring. Kids are hilarious. Same old, same old.

<- u="">Sidebar:
If you look over to your left you will see that I added a small ticker entitled "Kangoo kms. Counter". I have set myself a goal. By the end of summer I want to have jumped 100 kms. on my Kangoo Jumps. No real reason other than I need to exercise and if I don't set myself a goal and be accountable I will never get down to business. I started on May 3rd and I will be done before the first snowfall. Follow along if you wish. I'm at 10.3 as of tonight. I will update as I go along.
One last thing,
Happy World IBD Day!

 



Keep smiling! (And blogging. I really need to remember that one....)
;D

Happy Mother's Day!!!!

Happy Mommy's Day to the bestest mom ever! We love you!

Keep smiling and loving your mama!

:D

You. Just. Can't.

What makes you think that you can do that to people? Social rules don't apply to you? You are special? You thought it was alright? You can't control yourself?

BS.

Complete and utter BS.

I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you!!!!

And to find out that there are more of you in this world?! IT MAKES ME SICK!!!!

Hate is a harsh word. But you are a horrible human being. And tonight I hate you more than ever. It has hit close to home again and while it didn't kill anyone this time a part of my faith in humanity is gone.

And I am sad.
And mad.
And am full of anger.

And I hate it.

And I hate that I hate it.

And I hate that I hate that I hate it.

Times infinity.
+1.










I love you.
<3

Like Clockwork....

It's no April Fools joke. April 1st, EVERY April 1st since the beginning of time my allergies kick into overdrive. I'm talking two to three sneeze in a row mornings to five to ten sneeze fits all day long. The occasional watery eye to the full on fiery rage of an inflamed and histamine filled tear duct. The subscript of an itch here or there to the unquenchable feeling of ripping open flesh!
You get the picture.
Anyway, moral of the story is don't take Benadryl before class or you might just fall asleep during the Endocrine System and have to scramble to Google to be able to finish your homework. Lesson learned.


P.S. I know I've been slacking with posting as of recently but the last five weeks have been an endless cycle of body systems, word lists to define, reviews to be completed and summaries to be written. Anatomy and Physiology, ugh. I promise I'll be a better blogger next week when I start Lab. Safety.

P.S.P.S. I got a copy of my latest labs from Dr. P and I plan on sharing them with you and filling you in that health way this weekend.

Why Thursday March 28th 2013 Will Forever Stick Out In My Mind....

What I did today....
•Put my finger through a man's aorta.
•Saw how an internal pacemaker works(from the inside!)
•Held a brain AND a spinal cord along with feeling every vertebra in a spine.
•Saw what dying young in a car accident does to your body.
•Dug metastasized tumor out of organs in an abdominal cavity.
•Played with a titanium knee.
•Pulled a tendon in an arm and moved each finger on a hand.
•Learned to appreciate life and how beautiful it truly is.
 
If you haven't guessed yet I spent this morning at the cadaver lab. It was really great and very informative. And being in the middle of my Anatomy & Physiology module in school it really helped to actually see how it all comes together and fits in the body. Don't get me wrong, I was petrified in the days leading up to the field trip. Especially after my teacher said that one girl got Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from entering the lab. So last night at midnight I was madly googling pictures and videos of dissected bodies. But besides the formaldehyde smell it was not bad at all. They don't even look like bodies and most of them didn't even have heads anyway. It looked in a way....fake, but not fake at the same time. It was very cool and still feels like kind of a dream. It truly a day to remember and cherish for the rest of my life. No pictures as this would have been disrespectful and who really has time when they're elbow high into someones abdominal cavity..

I did however take a picture of my afternoons activities....

Long Story Short....

.... Iron is now too low. Discontinuing phlebotomies for two weeks. I am super white. Almost ghostly. And oh so tired.
Also my white cell count has plummeted for some reason. So it's massive hand sanitizer and anti-bacterial wipe city around here. It probably doesn't help that I'm currently fighting the SARS that has set in in my chest, the permanent pink eye that has set up residence in both of my eyes and the bladder infection that I am slowly losing the battle with. I see Dr. P. in two weeks and we will have lots to talk about. But until then I am sleeping.

Keep smiling and goodnight!
:)
*SNORE*

It's A Great Day....

....to build a snow moose!
With one eye.

.)