5....

125 Dunlop Street

5th period French

Level 5 Cahier

75% in the class

Row/Team 5 in Literature

5 books read

85% of your final mark

5 journals filled

55 minute lunches on the caf floor

5 laughs a day

5 games of cards

5 won

5 years knowing you

5 days before I knew you were gone

5 sobs from your mom when she told me

5 years without you

It feels more like 500

I miss you Bubba.

I love you.

Your Normal Becomes Your New Normal....

"Yes your life is going to be different but it would have been different if you were born in a different country or if you had a different skin colour or if you had another zero on the end of your bank account.
But people don't dwell on these things because it's their normal."

I believe Hank Green is my spirit animal.
Definitely worth a watch

Living with a Chronic Disease: http://youtu.be/rr8wIiypS_g

Keep smiling
And fighting the good fight.
:)

It All Changes and It All Stays the Same....

Two years ago today my world came crashing down around me. My best friend was gone, had been ripped from her newly thriving life. She was studying to become a Family and Youth Social Worker to help those who could not help themselves, much like she herself had been before she saught help mid-way through our 12th school year. I will never forget the day she told me "all of everything" as she put it.

August, 15th/2008.

I thought she was the most courageous soul ever to walk this planet. And I still do. She read me journal posts and we talked into the wee hours of the morning. I will not divulge any of the things she told me that night. These secrets will go to the grave with me as they did her.

I will also never forget the day I got the call.

June, 23rd/2012

Aly, my Aly, was gone. She would never recieve her degree. She would never call me with her "Guess what?!?!" coming before her hello, or before she even knew it was me. And she would never send me an email with that stupid little snail following her signature that I never really fully understood though she explained it so many times. Oh God I miss that little guy.

Now to the title of this post. It all changes and it all stays the same. Since my friend has been gone here are some major milestones I have encountered.
-I have quit my daycare job.
-I went back to school.
-I obtained my diploma with Honours and am now a full fledged Medical Laboratory Technician/Phlebotomist.
-I found out four days ago that I am hired on as a Phlebotomist at a major local hospital.

And who do I want to tell more than anyone? Someone I can't. The guilt has slowly started to creep back in. Both that I have done all of this went she can't and that it took her death to push me out of my comfort zone.

I speak to you directly now my Bubba. I am sorry and I am thankful and I am happy and I am sad and I am mourning and I am hopeful. I know that you know where all of these lie in my head and my heart at this very moment. Keep on doing what you do. I love you.

http://youtu.be/nkqVm5aiC28

It All Changes Tomorrow....

....hopefully....

Keep Smiling

        Wishing

        Hoping

        Praying

        And crossing everything you've got!!

A Fitting End....

.... to a very trying week.

The Universe Always Listens....

Keep smiling.
And believing
:D

Tomorrow, I Can Feel It....

Tomorrow is the day.
Although I thought today was the day.
But tomorrow feels special.
We shall see.

Keep smiling, hoping, and dreaming.
:)

Caterpillars to Butterflies....

No truer words have ever been spoken,

For today I become a butterfly.

Keep smiling,

Fly high and beautifully my friends.

:)

Day 35 On The Alien Planet....

....and I'm not sure what to do with myself.
The job hunt has been less than prosperous and sitting in my living room is getting boring. There is only so much Price Is Right and Dr. Phil you can watch in a day without going a little stir crazy.
I have one prospect for a job that hopefully I have an edge up on. Still it's tough when you have so many people in your class that did so well.
I have faith that I will be hired soon.
Until then....

Keep Smiling!
(And applying!)
:)

What A Year It Has Been....

This time last year I was in a less than optimal spot. I was down, I was out and I was ready for a change.
A full year and a whirlwind blur later here I am, sitting in my same chair, waiting for the same ball to drop in Time Square.
Yet I feel different.
I feel happy, hopeful, educated.
My head is in a better place.
This past year I have learned so much. So much that sometimes I feel as if my head might explode. But it doesn't. It's just my future swimming around in there no biggie, right? WRONG! I worry if I know enough. There are so many scenarios in the real world that school just can't prepare you for. Real diseases, uncooperative patients, lineups and numbers. Oi vey....
But I can do it! I have faith! Because THIS is my job. THIS is my future. And I love it.
I love the job and skills and people that I have met over the past year.
My life is in a good spot.
Now the job hunt begins.

Keep smiling!
And Happy New Year!
:)