What makes you think that you can do that to people? Social rules don't apply to you? You are special? You thought it was alright? You can't control yourself?
BS.
Complete and utter BS.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you!!!!
And to find out that there are more of you in this world?! IT MAKES ME SICK!!!!
Hate is a harsh word. But you are a horrible human being. And tonight I hate you more than ever. It has hit close to home again and while it didn't kill anyone this time a part of my faith in humanity is gone.
And I am sad.
And mad.
And am full of anger.
And I hate it.
And I hate that I hate it.
And I hate that I hate that I hate it.
Times infinity.
+1.
I love you.
<3
Monday, April 29, 2013
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Like Clockwork....
It's no April Fools joke. April 1st, EVERY April 1st since the beginning of time my allergies kick into overdrive. I'm talking two to three sneeze in a row mornings to five to ten sneeze fits all day long. The occasional watery eye to the full on fiery rage of an inflamed and histamine filled tear duct. The subscript of an itch here or there to the unquenchable feeling of ripping open flesh!
You get the picture.
Anyway, moral of the story is don't take Benadryl before class or you might just fall asleep during the Endocrine System and have to scramble to Google to be able to finish your homework. Lesson learned.
P.S. I know I've been slacking with posting as of recently but the last five weeks have been an endless cycle of body systems, word lists to define, reviews to be completed and summaries to be written. Anatomy and Physiology, ugh. I promise I'll be a better blogger next week when I start Lab. Safety.
P.S.P.S. I got a copy of my latest labs from Dr. P and I plan on sharing them with you and filling you in that health way this weekend.
You get the picture.
Anyway, moral of the story is don't take Benadryl before class or you might just fall asleep during the Endocrine System and have to scramble to Google to be able to finish your homework. Lesson learned.
P.S. I know I've been slacking with posting as of recently but the last five weeks have been an endless cycle of body systems, word lists to define, reviews to be completed and summaries to be written. Anatomy and Physiology, ugh. I promise I'll be a better blogger next week when I start Lab. Safety.
P.S.P.S. I got a copy of my latest labs from Dr. P and I plan on sharing them with you and filling you in that health way this weekend.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Why Thursday March 28th 2013 Will Forever Stick Out In My Mind....
What I did today....
•Put my finger through a man's aorta.
•Saw how an internal pacemaker works(from the inside!)
•Held a brain AND a spinal cord along with feeling every vertebra in a spine.
•Saw what dying young in a car accident does to your body.
•Dug metastasized tumor out of organs in an abdominal cavity.
•Played with a titanium knee.
•Pulled a tendon in an arm and moved each finger on a hand.
•Learned to appreciate life and how beautiful it truly is.
If you haven't guessed yet I spent this morning at the cadaver lab. It was really great and very informative. And being in the middle of my Anatomy & Physiology module in school it really helped to actually see how it all comes together and fits in the body. Don't get me wrong, I was petrified in the days leading up to the field trip. Especially after my teacher said that one girl got Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from entering the lab. So last night at midnight I was madly googling pictures and videos of dissected bodies. But besides the formaldehyde smell it was not bad at all. They don't even look like bodies and most of them didn't even have heads anyway. It looked in a way....fake, but not fake at the same time. It was very cool and still feels like kind of a dream. It truly a day to remember and cherish for the rest of my life. No pictures as this would have been disrespectful and who really has time when they're elbow high into someones abdominal cavity..
I did however take a picture of my afternoons activities....
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•Put my finger through a man's aorta.
•Saw how an internal pacemaker works(from the inside!)
•Held a brain AND a spinal cord along with feeling every vertebra in a spine.
•Saw what dying young in a car accident does to your body.
•Dug metastasized tumor out of organs in an abdominal cavity.
•Played with a titanium knee.
•Pulled a tendon in an arm and moved each finger on a hand.
•Learned to appreciate life and how beautiful it truly is.
If you haven't guessed yet I spent this morning at the cadaver lab. It was really great and very informative. And being in the middle of my Anatomy & Physiology module in school it really helped to actually see how it all comes together and fits in the body. Don't get me wrong, I was petrified in the days leading up to the field trip. Especially after my teacher said that one girl got Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from entering the lab. So last night at midnight I was madly googling pictures and videos of dissected bodies. But besides the formaldehyde smell it was not bad at all. They don't even look like bodies and most of them didn't even have heads anyway. It looked in a way....fake, but not fake at the same time. It was very cool and still feels like kind of a dream. It truly a day to remember and cherish for the rest of my life. No pictures as this would have been disrespectful and who really has time when they're elbow high into someones abdominal cavity..
I did however take a picture of my afternoons activities....
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Friday, February 22, 2013
Long Story Short....
.... Iron is now too low. Discontinuing phlebotomies for two weeks. I am super white. Almost ghostly. And oh so tired.
Also my white cell count has plummeted for some reason. So it's massive hand sanitizer and anti-bacterial wipe city around here. It probably doesn't help that I'm currently fighting the SARS that has set in in my chest, the permanent pink eye that has set up residence in both of my eyes and the bladder infection that I am slowly losing the battle with. I see Dr. P. in two weeks and we will have lots to talk about. But until then I am sleeping.
Keep smiling and goodnight!
:)
*SNORE*
Also my white cell count has plummeted for some reason. So it's massive hand sanitizer and anti-bacterial wipe city around here. It probably doesn't help that I'm currently fighting the SARS that has set in in my chest, the permanent pink eye that has set up residence in both of my eyes and the bladder infection that I am slowly losing the battle with. I see Dr. P. in two weeks and we will have lots to talk about. But until then I am sleeping.
Keep smiling and goodnight!
:)
*SNORE*
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Such A Good Juggler....
What was I worried about? Four ball juggling is easy. I'm an awesome four ball juggler. I'm tired. Of course I'm tired. But what four ball juggler isn't.
Circus school....
Such a worry wart....
Keep amazingly juggling and smile!
:)
*NOTE: I still can't juggle. That would be amazing if I had learned to juggle with four balls in less than 24 hours.
**Also, here is a picture of my arm. It would seem as though my Tegaderm/tape allergy is getting worse. Hmmmm....
Circus school....
Such a worry wart....
Keep amazingly juggling and smile!
:)
*NOTE: I still can't juggle. That would be amazing if I had learned to juggle with four balls in less than 24 hours.
**Also, here is a picture of my arm. It would seem as though my Tegaderm/tape allergy is getting worse. Hmmmm....
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Maybe I Should Be In Circus School....
I have three balls in the air. I am juggling. Anyone can juggle with three balls. Three balls is easy. One in each of your hands, let go and throw it up when you must catch the third. It's when you add a forth that it begins to get complicated. Two in the air, two in your hands? One in the air, three in your hands? Just throw them all up and hope you can catch them before they hit the floor? Yes, four balls is very hard.
My three balls are as follows; my job, my schooling, my phlebotomies. Right now I am doing alright. I balance my throws so that I am only in fear of dropping one at a time. Then I catch it just in the nick of time and pay attention to the next free floating ball. This is the way you are SUPPOSED to juggle. And this is the way it is working for me. I three ball juggle very well.
BUT tomorrow I add a fourth ball. Tomorrow is the first Remicade after starting school. I go at 9 am and then go to school for 1 pm. I'm not sure how this is going to work. I feel horrible after my infusions and know I won't feel like going to school after. Thankfully it's computer week so I only have to stay until 3 pm (and not 5 pm). And I did most of my tomorrow's work today because I had a lot of extra time. Thinking ahead. That's how one juggles!
I hope I juggle four as well as three. Here's hoping a fifth doesn't soon join the mix!
Keep smiling and juggling!
:)
*juggling is being used as a metaphor for this particular post. I can not juggle, three balls or four. But that would be very cool.
My three balls are as follows; my job, my schooling, my phlebotomies. Right now I am doing alright. I balance my throws so that I am only in fear of dropping one at a time. Then I catch it just in the nick of time and pay attention to the next free floating ball. This is the way you are SUPPOSED to juggle. And this is the way it is working for me. I three ball juggle very well.
BUT tomorrow I add a fourth ball. Tomorrow is the first Remicade after starting school. I go at 9 am and then go to school for 1 pm. I'm not sure how this is going to work. I feel horrible after my infusions and know I won't feel like going to school after. Thankfully it's computer week so I only have to stay until 3 pm (and not 5 pm). And I did most of my tomorrow's work today because I had a lot of extra time. Thinking ahead. That's how one juggles!
I hope I juggle four as well as three. Here's hoping a fifth doesn't soon join the mix!
Keep smiling and juggling!
:)
*juggling is being used as a metaphor for this particular post. I can not juggle, three balls or four. But that would be very cool.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
My Thursday....
Keep in mind that after this I have to go to work, go to school, then come home and do 4-6 hours of homework. Ugh. Phlebotomy at it's finest....
P.S. Thank you to my loverly sister for coming with me, keeping me company and taking these pics.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Wow What A Week....
Obviously I underestimated the whole college thing. With at least 4-6 hours of homework every night and an exam(that I totally aced! Woot!) I might be in a little over my head here.
The whole week is sort of a blur so just to give you an idea of my plight here are my Facebook statuses from the week....
"4 hours down, 1026 to go."
"5 assignments for homework? Done!"
"The best part of today? I can write in the textbooks! It still feels weird though..."
"Mmmm! Scrubs and lab coats!"
"Only four days in and already an exam tomorrow! Good luck Kylee!"
....just to name a few. But the best part?! I got a friggin' 100% in the course! AND ON THE EXAM!!
THAT NEVER HAPPENS!!!!
Maybe I didn't give myself enough credit in high school? Maybe I was just too sick? Whatever it was it doesn't matter. Bring on college! I can take it! Student Success Strategies was a sinch and Professional skills will be too. With marks like this there's no way I can fail!
Keep smiling! I know I sure am!
:D
The whole week is sort of a blur so just to give you an idea of my plight here are my Facebook statuses from the week....
"4 hours down, 1026 to go."
"5 assignments for homework? Done!"
"The best part of today? I can write in the textbooks! It still feels weird though..."
"Mmmm! Scrubs and lab coats!"
"Only four days in and already an exam tomorrow! Good luck Kylee!"
....just to name a few. But the best part?! I got a friggin' 100% in the course! AND ON THE EXAM!!
THAT NEVER HAPPENS!!!!
Maybe I didn't give myself enough credit in high school? Maybe I was just too sick? Whatever it was it doesn't matter. Bring on college! I can take it! Student Success Strategies was a sinch and Professional skills will be too. With marks like this there's no way I can fail!
Keep smiling! I know I sure am!
:D
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Catching My Breath, Letting It Go....
I was a bit hesitant to write about this because I hadn't dotted my i's and crossed my t's. But now that I know I've signed my life away and can't back out I think it's the right time.
I. Kylee. Am going to college. I know, right? How cool is that?! And I start tomorrow. EEEEKK!!!!
What am I going for? At the end I hope to become a Medical Laboratory Technician. That is to say I'll be able to draw and test blood and other bodily fluids.
What has me choosing this path for my life? Three major things have driven me to decide to go back to school.
1) I have always said I was going to post secondary education. I didn't know for what or when but I knew I would someday. And having been so sick over the past two years my inspiration sort of got thrust into my lap. Or I suppose arm. With a needle. It doesn't matter. I'm inspired!
2) My best friend is gone. If there is anything that losing my best friend has taught me it's that you can sit on your butt and dream and wish for the thing you want to magically fall into your lap or you can go and get it. I want this. And I won't stop until I get it.
3) There was a soother in my pocket. I am not even kidding you. I was shopping in late November and went to reach into my coat pocket and I pulled out a soother. I don't have a child. It was that day when I decided that I was getting out of daycare.
Those are my main three reasons for going to school. And besides daycare was never supposed to be a forever thing. It's something that I just kind of fell into after high school. And recently I've become too comfortable. It's time to shake it up. I need to grow up. I need to have grown up conversations. I need to make a difference in the world.
And that is why I'm going to college.
And I'm excited!
But I'll let you know after tomorrow's class.
;)
To end off on an optimistic note I heard this song on the radio a few weeks ago and I think it perfectly encompasses my newest endeavour....
Catch My Breath
By: Kelly Clarkson
"I don't wanna be left behind
Distance was a friend of mine
Catching breath in a web of lies
I've spent most of my life
Riding waves, playing acrobat
Shadowboxing the other half
Learning how to react
I've spent most of my time
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now
Addicted to the love I found
Heavy heart, now a weightless cloud
Making time for the ones that count
I'll spend the rest of my time
Laughing hard with the windows down
Leaving footprints all over town
Keeping faith kinda comes around
I'll spent the rest of my life
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now
You helped me see
The beauty in everything
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right
Catch my breath!
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now (it's all so simple now!)
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now"
I. Kylee. Am going to college. I know, right? How cool is that?! And I start tomorrow. EEEEKK!!!!
What am I going for? At the end I hope to become a Medical Laboratory Technician. That is to say I'll be able to draw and test blood and other bodily fluids.
What has me choosing this path for my life? Three major things have driven me to decide to go back to school.
1) I have always said I was going to post secondary education. I didn't know for what or when but I knew I would someday. And having been so sick over the past two years my inspiration sort of got thrust into my lap. Or I suppose arm. With a needle. It doesn't matter. I'm inspired!
2) My best friend is gone. If there is anything that losing my best friend has taught me it's that you can sit on your butt and dream and wish for the thing you want to magically fall into your lap or you can go and get it. I want this. And I won't stop until I get it.
3) There was a soother in my pocket. I am not even kidding you. I was shopping in late November and went to reach into my coat pocket and I pulled out a soother. I don't have a child. It was that day when I decided that I was getting out of daycare.
Those are my main three reasons for going to school. And besides daycare was never supposed to be a forever thing. It's something that I just kind of fell into after high school. And recently I've become too comfortable. It's time to shake it up. I need to grow up. I need to have grown up conversations. I need to make a difference in the world.
And that is why I'm going to college.
And I'm excited!
But I'll let you know after tomorrow's class.
;)
To end off on an optimistic note I heard this song on the radio a few weeks ago and I think it perfectly encompasses my newest endeavour....
Catch My Breath
By: Kelly Clarkson
"I don't wanna be left behind
Distance was a friend of mine
Catching breath in a web of lies
I've spent most of my life
Riding waves, playing acrobat
Shadowboxing the other half
Learning how to react
I've spent most of my time
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now
Addicted to the love I found
Heavy heart, now a weightless cloud
Making time for the ones that count
I'll spend the rest of my time
Laughing hard with the windows down
Leaving footprints all over town
Keeping faith kinda comes around
I'll spent the rest of my life
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now
You helped me see
The beauty in everything
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right
Catch my breath!
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now (it's all so simple now!)
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now"
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