Today is Not A Happy Day....

Yesterday I took the first step in attaining one of my biggest life goals. But today is not the day for that. I cannot even be excited for myself when I think about what transpired in Newtown, Connecticut. I feel like I have been stripped of my happiness and euphoria today.

No.
Today is most definitely not a happy day.
Today is a sorrowful day.
Today is a tragic day.
Today is a day of mourning.
Today is a day of lost innocence.

Today is a day of 20 children being gunned down at school.
Today is a day of 5 year olds gasping for their final breaths crying for mommies and daddies as they expire.
Today is a day where you rip a paper into 20 tiny bits to try to wrap your mind around the number 2-0.
Today is a day that you weep for everyone of those papers.
Today is a day of funeral plans instead of Christmas joy.
Today is a day of realization that evil is real.
Today is a day of breaking news and up to date reports.
Today is a day of scarred survivors.
Today is a day of sobbing presidents.

Today is a day to hold your children close and never ever ever let go........

Getting Close to the Edge....

I am getting ever so closer.
Left foot, right foot. Left foot, right foot. Closer to the edge I go.
Will I jump?
Here I go....

I'm Standing on the Edge of a Great Precipice....

....and I'm afraid to move. If I step back I know I will be safe and comfortable forever. If I take another step forward I will fall into something unknown, scary, grown up.
And it frightens me to death. But it's something I have to do. Something I want to do. But GAHHHH! I'm so scared!
Anyways, sorry for being so deep with so few details. If all goes according to plan then I might have something to share by the weekend.
Hang tight! I know I am!
:S

November Health Update....

Here we go!

November 22nd- Got Remicade. Pretty un-eventful. They did a blood draw right from the IV so I didn't have to go to a lab the next day. YAY for less pokes! I got flushed after the Solu-cortef and the nurse was a tad worried but all was OK. She put it in my chart to watch for next time (Jan. 3rd). And she also put a hypoallergenic Tegaderm in my chart to try for next time.

November 29th- I had my docs appt. with Dr. A-S(Endocrinologist). It was a disaster. I was told that I was going to see her for my Hemachromatosis. She doesn't deal with genetic things. I had seen her years ago for a bit of high blood sugar so she just wants to do a follow up on that anyway so that means more bloodwork and fasting for it (ew). Anyway, I am now waiting for a dietitian appointment. Phew, docs....

Really? Is that all I had to update? I thought there was more.... Oh well.
:)

Why I Am Feeling Especially Honoured This Week....

Last Saturday I received a comment from someone I have never met. It said that her name was Whitney and she was running in the Las Vegas Rock n' Roll Crohn's and Colitis Marathon. What's so exciting about this you ask? Lots of people were running you say? Well what I was absolutely flabbergasted by was the fact that she told me that she was going to wear my name at the race. WHAT!?!? MY NAME!?!? You mean someone actually reads all of the stuff I write down!?

Wow! Honoured (even with the Canadian spelling extra letter) is not a big enough word!

Here are a couple of pictures she sent me from the race.



 

 

 

Thank you Whitney! I'm so glad that I could inspire you!
Keep Smiling!
:)

WEGO Hea- What? You Mean I Have to Start Naming These Posts By Myself Again?

Fun Fact: It usually takes at least 17 hours for food to make it through my digestive system(since I have started Remicade). I can tell you for a fact that today it only took 5 hours. This is A) My intestines becoming more efficient or B) Me being on the cusp of a flare. I'm hoping its the former(doubt it), but it's probably the latter(lovely *eyeroll*). And with all of the non health related crap going on in my life a flare is not something I need right now. Grrrr....

A full out health update comin' atcha this weekend(God willing). Lots of catching up to do from last month.
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Just Kidding!

I'm not really gone! I think it has something to do with habit now but everyday posting just feels right. Nothing much to say. But I have changed the layout. What do you think? I do so love winter....

DAY 30: WEGO Health's National Blog Post Month

DAY 30 - Recap WHNBPM

Here we are. The end of the month.
:(
I always get sad when things end. But I am happy I made it through. And that I won't be obligated to post every single night if I don't feel like it. And that I can get back to self-guided posts. I feel like I haven't updated personal stuff in well.... two months?! Has it really been that long that I've posted everyday?! Huh....

Let's recap shall we....

• I discussed WHY I write about my health.
• And also why my health is so weird.
• I've told new doctors, nurses AND patients what to do.
• I've virtually emptied my bag. Now I have to actually do it. :P
• I wrote about how I inspire myself.
• And also my belief in Karma.
• I have designed the perfect doctor's office using Microsoft Paint. This is no easy task.
• AND also the human body in the same program.
• I sent a passive aggressive letter to my health.
• I recounted the time before my diagnosis.
• I made you laugh. (Hopefully :) )
• I whined about shaving my legs.
• I wrote a book review and the author published it here.... http://www.foulbowel.com/18912/35844.html
• I used my body parts to create a soap opera.
• I mentally packed for a potential trip to Orlando Florida.
• I taught you all how to make your very own DIY Upholstered Headboard.
• I have listed my strengths and weaknesses.
• I realised I would be totally broke and in debt if I lived in the US.
• I deeply contemplated both life and death and what would happen to my blog in the worst case scenario.
• I tried to change society's perceptions.
• I craved more spoons. (And Caesar Salad.)
• I learned what a "meme" was and tried to recreate a few.
• I revealed that I refuse to grow up.
• I have asked for feedback. Seriously! I love comments!
• And finally I regretted, ignored, absorbed and appreciated.

What a great month it has been! I am so thankful for my readers tonight and ask that if I take a few days to myself you don't get too upset. The health ramblings shall continue soon. I promise. Stay tuned....

DAY 29: WEGO Health's National Blog Post Month

DAY 29 - Write about the unexpected blessings of your health conditions....

When I was little I used to fear getting sick. Colds or a 24 hour bug, I hated getting sick. The first time I really realized that you could have an "illness that stuck" around longer than the average two week cold was when my Aunt got breast cancer. I watched her fight for months and months and that's when it really clicked that someone can get really really sick. Fast forward to today all I see are shots, pills, IVs, tests and doctors appointments. I truly understand now.
This is one blessing that having chronic illnesses has taught me. Not everyone gets to be healthy all of the time. You take what you get and you make the best of it. It's not fair but it's life.
I try to abide by the motto "absorb, ignore, appreciate".
Absorb the information you need to know.
Ignore the downers that will ruin your positive attitude.
Appreciate what you do have instead of wishing for what you can't have.
Oh ya, and smile. Always smile.
:)

DAY 28: WEGO Health's National Blog Post Month

DAY 28 - Write about how you deal with mean comments or bullies.

I don't have a problem with mean comments on my blog as I don't get too many and they are always positive. Thank you to everyone that comments. And if you haven't, go ahead. I love feedback and ideas. It gives me a chance to read your blogs and get to know you as well. Go! Comment now!
;)

As for bullies or meanies in real life all you can really do is try to ignore them. Even if it's hard.
There will always be someone who THINKS that they are better than you or have more than you do or are more popular than you are. The thing is if you are happy in your life with your family, your friends, and who you are as a person no one can bring you down. So what if you are different? So what if you are sick? It's nobodys business but yours and your doctor's. And if someone thinks it's their business you can tell them to shove off because they were never really your friend or ally.
Other than that just smile. You never know when a smile will knock them down a few notches on the karma ladder. (And it feels pretty good too!)
:D